Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Appointment tomorrow with embryo adoption counselor and with co-ordinator
Well our appointment is tomorrow or I guess you could consider it today as it is almost 3am as I write this.We have our appointment with the embryo counselor and co-ordinator to get informed on the whole process and receive our mandated counseling.(we already paid our deposit to be put on the adoptable embryo waiting list a couple of weeks ago)I am nervous and excited both.This is a whole new process to me unlike anything I have tried before.The farthest I have ever gone was IUI.And now that has been several years ago.While I know that nothing physical will happen tomorrow, I know that it is the begining to this new road we have chosen. The unknown can always scare me a bit. I have heard of embryos not surviving the thawing process that is terrifying and sad both. I know that God must have a plan as I was drawn to this option out of nowhere and almost by accident.It still feels like the right thing to do but that doesn't mean that I am still not scared of it not working. I know, think positive but that can be hard to do when you have seen so many BFN's in your life I am sure others can relate.Eventually I would like to join some kind of IF support group but I don't think there are any in my local area, maybe an hour away or so but not close.Well I should head to bed as I do have that appointment even though it's not until 12:30 pm but it is an hour away.God Bless you all!