Lots of news!! Name annoucement, U/S update and calling out all lurkers :-)

Well where to begin.First I want to thank April and Michele for the goodies they sent in the mail.That was so sweet of them and I want to thank them for participating in my online baby shower that Tammy and Kami started.Here are the links to Tammy and Kami's blogs just copy and paste.( I just want to acknowledge that they are the reason for all of these blessings we have received, and of course all of you fellow kind hearted bloggers!)

Tammy's blog

http://twondra.blogspot.com/2009/09/online-baby-shower.html

Kami's blog

http://themurphy4.blogspot.com/2009/09/online-baby-shower.html

Michelle sent us a very much needed package of newborn diapers and the adorable moo sounds milk and cookies toy we registered for! I just know our baby will love playing with that.

April sent us a wonderful two pack of avent bottles, soothie pacifiers and a very cute soothie holder.She also included a note card with some very kind thoughts and words of encouragement.

Thank you both! You have no idea how much it means to us!!


Next I would like to ask all of my blog lurkers to come out and introduce yourself and maybe follow officially so I can get to know you and your story as well!! I am very excited to get a chance "meet" you all.

We completed our birthing classes this weekend which we both enjoyed and found to be informative.We chose to do the condensed weekend version as we never know when our little baby will decide to come.And my boys were with their dad so we would not need to find a sitter for several different days.We had a couple of long days but it was helpful.Saturday alone we attended for 7 hours straight with a break for lunch.And on Sunday we attended for 3 hours.But we now have our certificate of completion and are done and getting ready for our little miracle!

We are currently 31 weeks pregnant but here is our 29 week belly pic.DH is going to take another one tonight or tomorrow.(our official due date got moved up sooner by two days and I forgot to change my ticker until today oops!)Anyway that puts our due date 2 days closer than before wow, which they reconfirmed when they called today!

We had our OB appointment last Thursday and it went well. I am up 21 pounds (yowser!) but I am told that it is well within the normal range for where I am at in my pregnancy.Still umm yikes! We were then scheduled for a full U/S on the next day to check for fetal growth.I got the results today and they said he is doing great, yes he still has boy parts (lol), I have had them check at 3 different U/S's to avoid a surprise later :-).They said his organs look good and everything looks normal.He is now about 3.4 pounds and is in the 50% group for fetus's at his age of development.So he is officially average.Which we are definitely happy about.They also checked my cervical length again and it was good.The tech had a new tech helping her so they took lots of time to look him over and held the wand right over him on my belly without moving it for a bit and we all could see his little eyes looking around.We saw him blink and watched his actual eyeball rotate and shift from side to side as if we was trying to figure out what was going on out there and what were we all doing.It was really cool.And before that we saw him suckling it was adorable.I am so in love with this little guy!! Unfortunately we were unable to get any pics that were very good due to how he was laying with the placenta.Here are a few 1 is a face pic ,another is of both feet which are conveniently located under my ribs lol and the another is a side profile of his foot.He is currently head down pressing right against my cervix with his feet up and under my left ribs and his little bottom is on my right side.Basically he is in a "L" shape.He is very spread out and comfy I guess :-)



Now as I promised I will reveal our baby "nanners" real name (first and middle)....Can I have the envelope please? And the winner is.... Mason Matthew!!!
So there you have it our little miracle has a name besides his nick name but we still use both when we refer to him.

Goodies arrrived in the mail!!

I cannot tell you how much fun it has been to get goodies in the mail from you wonderful girls! Your kindness and generousity it greatly appreciated.I want to take a minute to thank those of you that have participated in my online baby shower given by Tammy and Kami.I copied and pasted the links to their blogs from my previous post.(someday maybe someone can teach me how to put a link in under the persons name etc cause mine are always the none functional copy and past ones)lol

Tammy's blog

http://twondra.blogspot.com/2009/09/online-baby-shower.html

Kami's blog

http://themurphy4.blogspot.com/2009/09/online-baby-shower.html

It has been so exciting to have a package arrive in the mail for the last few days.I get so giddy and excited that I barely get inside the house before I am trying to open it.DH has gotten a big kick out of it and says he loves seeing me so happy and smiling.I am always telling "nanner" that it looks like he's got a present when I see that a package has arrived.I want to acknowledge those of you that have sent us something for our little guy.I am so blessed to have you all in my life, you guys may not realize it but you all mean so much to me.I look forward to reading your posts even if I don't always comment please know that if I am following you ,I am reading your posts.I always check my blog for new comments from all of you and am thankful to those of you that take the time to comment and or share some kind encouraging words.

Before I thank everyone I want to say that I will not be using last names for privacy reasons.I know that there may be more of you that sent or will be sending something that I have not received yet please do not think I have forgotten or am excluding you.I will be acknowledging everyone and will be doing show n tell with pics for everything that arrives! After all this is my baby shower with all of you and I want to have you all experience it with me.I do want to take a minute to say that the the offer of hand me downs I have received mean so much to me and DH.We consider that just as much a gift as a anything off our registry.We know personally that times are tough and appreciate anything anyone wants to bless us with!

I want to thank Tammy for the very soft and sweet blanket that she made and sent for our little guy it is just precious and like she said it says "miracle baby" on it which she said was perfect and I agree!

Thank you Michelle for the 3 pack of printed bottles they will be so handy,much needed and are so perfect!

Thank you Gretchen for the awesome crib dust ruffle,crib sheet and fleece blanket that will now complete our adorable crib set!(those were the items that we were missing)

Thank you Michell for the 3 very cute outfits for our little one and the sweet blankie!

And last but not least I want to thank Rebecca for the 3 pack of bottles,again much needed and the adorable 4 pack of safari receiving blankets which are perfect and very cute!

Latest News.....

Yes I offically changed our blog name, I wanted it to reflect where we are in our journey, I hope that it hasn't confused anyone.

I had a u/s to check cervical length today and the tech said everything looked fine,they were checking it due to all of my braxton hicks and cramps/possible contactions I have had.

I will be announcing our little "nanners" real name on my next post!!!

We are officially 28 weeks pregnant, if you would have asked me back when I had the bleeding episode/threatened mc/hematoma diagnosis if I thought we were gonna make it this far I probably would have said "no" but here were are!!!

I will post a 28 week belly pic in my next post.

I also would like to do a reader round up to see who is following my blog that I haven't had the pleasure to "meet" yet.So get ready all you lurkers as I will be inviting you out in my next post :-)

Very sweet Tammy and Kami and an online baby shower for me

I cannot believe the kindness and loving hearts these 2 women possess and I wanted to share with you all what they are up to in case you are not followers of their blogs.Tammy approached me to ask if she could throw me an online baby shower because of how Bryan's family has been treating us and other other sad things that have happened surrounding my baby shower.If you missed those posts they are the 2-3 previous ones on my blog.I am going to include a link to each of their blogs so you all can see what they are up to and because Tammy recommended that I share with my readers what they are doing.To say that I am overwhelmed by their kindness is an understatement. I am truly touched more than words could possibly convey that they wanted to do this for me.I have said this before and I will say it again "I sure wish I had more people locally in my life that had the hearts that my fellow bloggers do" You blogger girls are wonderful and I am truly blessed to have all of you in my life!! ((HUGS))

Tammy's blog

http://twondra.blogspot.com/2009/09/online-baby-shower.html

Kami's blog

http://themurphy4.blogspot.com/2009/09/online-baby-shower.html

Latest news-

We are at the 3 month mark before our due date that our OB warned us to be ready by,she said due to the hematoma and my endometriois that we should have our ducks in a row by the the middle of September in case he comes early.I am happy to say that he is still staying put for now and I hope it stays that way until it's time for him to come.It seems that most hematoma patients deliver at 26-30 weeks.Some make it to 32-34 and a few all the way to their due date.We are officially 27 weeks now and I hope we make it at least until 30 or so.(the good news is we made it to and passed viability 24 weeks,and everyday and week that passes he gets stronger and stronger)

We toured our birthing facility and the people we very nice, we were already pre-registered from a scare we had a couple months ago.

I took my glucose test and that stuff is so sickening sweet and thicker (I had orange) that I thought for sure I was going to puke it back up, I was able to keep it down but had an upset tummy for most of the day.I then had my blood drawn after an hour and will most likely find out the results at my appointment on this Thursday the 24th.

I now feel him kicking a squirming on my sides, it's kind of weird how he can be so far over.He has his active times and less active times but I feel him everyday!

And I will be including a 26 week belly shot, there is no mistaking that I am pregnant at all.I am starting to feel huge and it's hard to find positions to sleep in and relax in.

Our shower,new pics and lots of braxton hicks!

These are pics of me on the day of the shower,they are my 24 week belly shot pics.
So let's start with the shower they did it, they boycotted it.It was very hard on me an DH and we even both cried a bit out of stress and hurt before we left to attend the shower.Partially because we didn't know what we were walking into and partially out of the hurt and stress.In the end the only 2 from his family that we knew were going to show actually did(great grandmother and his great aunt).The rest never showed,never RSVP'd,or called us ,no cards or presents were mailed or acknowledgement of the first baby for DH and his side at all.Very cold people.So in the end out of 36 people invited 8 showed up.We had a small amount of hope that there would have been a few that changed their mind and realized that his issues with his mother were not their issues and they shouldn't get involved.My mom,sister,his great aunt,great grandma and a few of my friends were who attended.I have to say we looked a little silly getting a large facility for such a small showing.But we never anticipated that they all wouldn't show when we first arranged for the use of the facility.We were a bit sad by the turnout as this was such a big day for us.I have attended so many baby showers and was just looking forward to my turn at being the one the shower was thrown for.I guess when you wait for something for 10 years you just have a certain way in your mind that it will go when it actually happens.My best friend did do a wonderful job throwing the shower the food was great and the games were fun.She did end up with way too much food as she planned for more too.We did get some nice gifts we got mostly clothes which included the following,2 onesies,6 sleepers,2 winter outfits,1 summer outfit (larger size for later),a pack of diapers,package of wipes, pacifiers,baby spoons,2 blankets,bottle of baby wash,socks/booties,rattle and a booster seat travel high combo.All of it was stuff we needed.We still have a lot we need, I am now wishing I had done more yard saling and bought more along the way but everyone told me not to because I would get way more than I needed at my shower.I guess that is true for some couples but when more then half of your guest list doesn't show I guess it changes things a bit.I hope his mom is happy as usual she won she managed to take a special day and bring pain to it.She did the same thing when we got engaged,when we got married, thanksgiving,Christmas,my birthday and now my one and only baby shower.I have no idea what will happen with all of them but for now dh is adamant that we are done with all of them.I can't say I very heartbroken about this as she has already hurt me so much I am not very sad to see her go.On a even sadder note I learned that one of my good college friends did not show up to my shower because she was deceased.I found out 4 days after the shower when my best friend called to say she had gotten back my college friend Tatiana's invite and that it had deceased written on it.I was in disbelief and denial.I was like yeah I know she was supposed to move and maybe the person at her old address did it because they were sick of getting her mail.My best friend was like I don't know it's just what it says.So we ended our conversation and I went to go look up our local newspaper online.I typed in her name and to my shock and horror there she was.She had been in a car accident and killed 9 months ago.I had no idea I just figured we had lost touch granted it was the longest we had gone without checking in with each other since we met.But we both were busy she had plans for moving to a different place,she had a 5 year old daughter and was single mother to her, I got married,had a honeymoon,she was in school and working full time.Then we started TTC and got matched with embies,had a failed cycle, got pregnant,had a threatened miscarriage and well here we are.It as been just over a year since we spoke last,little did I now that she was dead for 9 months of it.As soon as I saw the article I burst into tears.I couldn't believe what I was seeing.How did I let us lose touch?It occurred to me that the same month she died we were blessed with being matched with embies, it was December.You always think you have tomorrow and that you will catch up later,but what if tomorrow never comes?
I met her in my math class in 2005 at our local business college.She was originally from Ecuador and and moved to Georgia in 2001 and became a citizen.She worked for a office furniture manufacturer and worked her way up from working on the lines to working in the plant offices.She was transferred to here from Georgia in 2004 and her employer sent her and some other fellow workers to school.That is where and when I met her.She taught herself english and she spoke it well, she had a strong accent but I came to love that about her.It wasn't so strong that you couldn't understand her but it always reminded me that she had built herself up from the bottom and wouldn't let her differences stop her.Before our lives got so busy we used to go to movies,out to eat, she helped me work on my spanish,she took me to a latin festival,she took me dancing at a latin dance club (that was so fun!),shot pool,went dancing at other dance clubs and just plain hung out.She loved buffalo wild wings,in particular the mozzarella sticks from there.She also loved to dance!She exposed me to culture that I may have never experienced to that magnitude if I had never met her.She was the most outgoing,fun loving,optimistic person I knew.She always had a huge beautiful smile on her face.And she was full of laughter.I will miss her so much. I was so looking forward to catching up with her at the shower she would have been so genuinely happy and excited for me.I wish I had known sooner about her death but we do not get the paper,don't watch much TV and her and I had no mutual friends since her only friends were a few she made at work.She had no family here they are mostly in Ecuador and she had a sister in Georgia.I had to do my own sleuthing if I wanted closure as I kept telling dh that I was unable to process her death.It may have happened 9 months ago but it was like it happened yesterday for me.I had no closure ,no memorial service to attend and no burial site to visit.To the best of my internet sleuthing her death certificate was issued in Georgia so I assume that is where she is buried.I did manage to find the father of her daughter who is in Georgia as I remembered his name and found him on a networking site.He replied to my email saying that their daughter is doing well,with the help of God and that she is with him.He also sent his phone number saying I can call anytime and he fill me in on all the questions I have surrounding her death, like her final resting spot, what exactly happened and a way to contact her family to let them know how much she meant to me along with my sympathies.It was great to see pics of her beautiful little girl again which he had on his site.I will be including a link to the newspaper article about her death if anyone would like to know the details.The one detail that I learned outside of the paper from a another that worked with her was that before her accident she had just dropped off her 5 year old daughter at school and was on her way to work.She was only 1-2 miles from her home when it happened.She was only 36 years old at the time of the crash.We also drove to where her accident happened and her last residence as I needed to see for myself.I am planning on making her a roadside marker.


http://www.mlive.com/news/muskegon/index.ssf/2008/12/car_crash_victim_a_native_of_e.html

God rest your wonderful soul and I will miss you greatly Tatiana!







The last thing I want to post about was all of these braxton hicks contractions I have been having they have been painful not painless like most of books describe.I had 4 only 6-10 minutes apart this weekend.They were all inside of an hour.I had more with less frequency throughout the rest of the night.I wasn't even doing anything strenuous, I was simply laying on the couch watching TV and getting the house ready to shut it down for the night.Poor dh was getting very freaked out as they were quite painful and he could feel how tight my uterus was. I have read that they can lead to real labor which makes me very nervous.I have had regular stronger cramping too.The hematoma and endometriosis put me at risk of premature labor so I do not know what to make of all this.We are praying that this little guy stays put until it's time for him to come in december.I plan to ask my doctor about all this when we go on september 24th.I will keep you all posted and if anyone has experienced something similar please free to share it will me.

Good news and hurtful news

The good news is I am 24 weeks 1 day pregnant which means my sweet little boy is now viable!! Praise GOD! But also on a different more hurtful note I plan to do something I do not normally do and that is vent about family.I know I have always watched my blogging for fear that someone I know IRL will find and read my blog but I just feel the need to share this with you girls.I will try to keep a long story short but here goes.Ever since I have been seeing DH before he was my DH his mom has not liked me.For no reason at all.You see she decided this before she even met me.All she knew about me is that I was older than him and was divorced with small children.Well that was all she needed to know and she made her mind up which has been impossible to change for 2 years.There are so many hurtful ways that she lashes out at me that I would never be able to list them but they are numerous and are always done in a passive aggressive manner.I will give you just a few of the several examples.When DH and I were still just boyfriend girlfriend (exclusive and serious) she tried to fix him up with someone else while his dad gave him the "play the field speech".To say that was hurtful is an understatement.Before I continue I must state that they proclaim to be "christians, avid, active christians" I am not saying they aren't but I do know that their actions do not reflect that to me.She has sent her brother (his uncle) in the past to have a talk with and try to talk him out of being with me.She invited bryan to the holidays x-mas and thanksgiving but excluded me and my boys the year we were engaged.She refused to let his younger siblings participate in our wedding they are several years younger than DH ,11 and 13.I told her that I hand decorated 2 champagne flutes for her and her husband at our wedding reception and that they were theirs to keep after the reception. Not only did they not use the flutes but they left them for trash on the table after they left.In the receiving line after the ceremony she stuck her hand out to shake mine instead of hugging me.I of course made her hug me.At x-mas this past year after we were married she gave everyone elaborate gifts but gave me a used book that she had owned herself for quite awhile.Dh looked at it and was like she has had this for a while I have seen it in her room etc. Not to mention it had water rings and warped pages from her drinking while reading.I am not saying that x-mas is about gifts but it certainly is not about trying to show someone that don't like them by obviously giving them a very used present that was nothing like she gave anyone else.Just to give you and idea of what she bought others,all the guys got Dewalt angle grinders (pricey)and the woman got beautiful tops with sweaters and jewelry sets from a macy like department store The store is younkers but I didn't think you all would know what that was.So as all my friends and family said it was another way of her hurting me and letting me know just how little she likes me.I have tried to talk to her which got me no where she not only has never apologized but has acted like she has done nothing wrong.I broke down crying to her last December telling her how much she has hurt me and that I want her to like me but all she said stone cold faced back to me was "I don't know you". She has never tried to get to know me either. I asked her to go shopping and scrapbook but she never took me up on it. The list is so long of things she has done to hurt me that I could not possibly blog about them all as it would take days.So now I will tell you about the latest hurtful thing she has done.First of all I have to say that DH and her have not been speaking since January due to more of her stunts.Well she has convinced everyone on his side to boycott my shower on Saturday even though DH did invite her too, which I made him as I thought it would help mend fences.But every time I try to do something nice it backfires on me.DH has had no issues with any other relatives so this was an extremely hurtful blow to us.So we have this large building for the only shower I will ever have and now it seems silly to have it as there are only 7 people attending on my side.(my family is very small)So I know this may seem wrong but I am crushed that my only shower I will ever get will be so tiny and hurtful.I have waited 10 years to have my "own" shower.So now she has struck yet again.Dh has decided that enough is enough and said that if they do not come they are out of his life for good.We found out by asking his grandma and she told us no one is coming and that his mom was why.They felt they had to side with her as she is family.He said what about this part of your family and she was silent.Of course they stated that they still wanted to be a part of the baby's life to which he answered "if you did you would be going to the shower". He also said "if you guys have decided that you don't want to participate in the shower than do not expect any more calls related to our baby and family again. (it is important to note that they do not know how this baby was conceived,so that has nothing to do with it and shouldn't matter anyways)What is hurtful about this is these are people that I got along with, the more distant relatives, or least they were nice to my face.But his mom is usually nice to my face too so I guess that is no indicator.All I know is I liked many of them and enjoyed being around them on the few family functions that I was able to.(we have only been married a year)I know that is will sound petty but financially it will hurt us too as we were anticipating that several of our basic baby needs would be met by the shower.At least that is what everyone kept telling us.Before I close this post I must say that we were asked when were having a shower and prompted to include everyone (including his mother), by one of HIS family members.Which we did and it has seemed to backfire on us.We were trying to do the right thing and it has been used to hurt us on a very special day. All I can say is I hurt inside even I should probably blow it off I just can't seem to.I found out 2 days ago and have cried on a few occasions about it.On top of everything no one in his family RSVP'D to let my friend know (she is throwing it)that 15 people,seriously 15 people will not be coming.Not one called.Which I think is very very rude.She had purchased food,flatware etc for several more than she will need. I feel bad that she wasted her money.I am gonna go for now girls and i hope that i do not rub anyone the wrong way with this post.I will be posting a 24 week belly shot soon.Until then hugs to you all...

great news and 22 week belly shot

Well I had my follow up u/s today and the results were great! Praise God!! They said that there was no more hematoma that it was GONE! We are so grateful that the threat to our little miracle has for the most part disappeared.We could still end having him early like I said before because of my endometriosis and the fact that I have had a hematoma but our chances of it being as early or early at all have been dramatically reduced. I have to say that wow he is getting big and now looks cramped in there compared to all the extra space he had before to float around in.I also asked the tech to check the sex again just to be sure and this tech says he's a boy too.I have a follow up appointment at my OB on wednesday and I will have more info on what my restrictions continue to be or if they have changed.We are just so excited and thankful to our lord for healing the hematoma.We prayed daily for this to happen and our prayers were answered.I will post either today or tomorrow our recent u/s pics.They are not as clear as we would have liked as he was being less than cooperative today.He was having his rest time he is not very active at the time of day my appointment was so he was curled up with an arm acrossed his face.He gave us a little wave and a few kicks but didn't really jump around much.But like I said that is normal for the time of day (2:00pm) our appointment was at.I will post more later when I get a bit more time.

Had a scare,pics from friends wedding in june and the latest goings on here

We are holding up 3 fingers in some of the pics because we were three months pregnant.The pictures were fun and we had a good time acting goofy and and sweet with each other.





Well lets start with the scare we had it started last weekend when the temp and humidity decided to spike and we started have our 95 degree days here in Michigan (crazy I know).On the afternoon of Sunday august 9th I started getting really overheated as we were having a yard sale with a friend. As the day grew hotter and more humid I started to feel overheated, nauseous and a bit dizzy.So I sat down as much as possible and was consuming fluids.I made a comment to DH and my friend that "nanner" that's what we call our baby for now, was not very active that day.But I just played down to the change in our schedule etc.Plus I was busy with the sale and preoccupied.Well later that night after the sale DH looked down at my feet and said "umm hunny, your feet are purple".I looked down and either out just exhaustion or not knowing how to respond was like "hmm imagine that, they are purple" At this point he prompted me to go lay down and put them up which I did.As the night went on "nanner" still did not make himself known and my skin was getting tight on my fingers,thighs and calves.I decided to call my OB's office the next day and tell them what was going on.I still hadn't really felt "baby nanner" and if I did it was so faint that I was unsure if it was bubbles or him.My ob's nurse was out so I got a different one and told her what was going on and she said the heat and humidity is very hard on pregnant women and that I needed to drink tons of water, to keep my feet up and rest.She also said that pregnant women become dehydrated easier and they can't tell when they are.She then said that I should drink something cold and lay very still and wait to see if the baby kicks etc.If I didn't have a change in things she said I was more than welcome to go into the birthing center and they would listen to him and check me out.Well Monday finished out and Tuesday went by with very very faint movement or gas bubbles not sure and he still was not being my active boy.He had been keeping regular hours of kicking and moving (even DH could feel him) up until Sunday.You could have set your watch by him so that is why this was alarming to me.So Wednesday night at about 11:45pm we went in.(I had to wait for my Ex-husband to get out of work so he could come sit at our house with mine and his boys while they slept.Yes I know we have an unconventional relationship but we are still good friends and we co-parent our children wonderfully.He and DH get along great and even installed a dishwasher here together.)So anyways going on they took a urine sample and listened to "baby nanner" and she said he sounded great,that his heart was steady and regular.She said I needed to drink more fluids,keep my feet up and rest.She also said the heat may have been getting to him a bit so I should try to stay hydrated and cool.All of which I had started to do since the heat wave started on Sunday.So we went home hoping she is right and tried to get some sleep.The very next morning what do you think happened? Of course it was our "baby nanner" kicking and moving just like his old self.He was kicking so hard that DH could feel him which put huge smiles on both of our faces.He's been our active little monkey ever since.He sure did give us a scare but we are glad he is alright.We have an u/s on Monday to check for the hematoma and see him again,we can't wait! I am finally posting our pics that we took in the photo booth at my friends wedding in June, I know I said I would a long time ago but better late than never. I should probably give a little history on our baby's nickname which he had even before we knew he was a boy in order to stop calling the baby "it" as in "it" kicked "it" moved,having a nickname made it more personable.His nickname came because we call him our little monkey and are doing his room in jungle and monkeys, so we decided on "nanner" as in banana.Everyone thought it was cute and it has stuck and will be around until he has an official name but I have a sneaking suspicion that he will always be our little nanner.On a different note I was officially put on prescription reflux/acid meds since my acid problem had gotten so bad and over the counter stuff was not working.They put me on protonix which I have to say works very well.My OB made the decision after I aspirated in my sleep.I literally woke up after dosing off at bedtime choking on milk and cereal that I had eaten an hour so before bed.DH woke up to me coughing and wheezing as I struggled to breath and cough up pieces of cereal and milk.It had made its way to my lungs as I breathed in while I slept,of course after shooting up my throat.It was very scary and went on for 15 minutes-20 minutes.My lungs burned and hurt so bad for the next few days like I had been diving very deep while swimming or something.We are officially done with all 3 baby registries, we added the baby depot at Burlington coat factory since it had a lot of different things that Babies r us and Target didn't have.I will be posting a 22 week belly pic very soon since I will be 22 weeks today.I know there was more to catch up all you girls on but I think I have pregnancy head lately and can't seem to remember anything ugh! Well I will close for now and I hope everyone is well, hugs to you all!
This pic is of me and one of my best friends she is the one throwing me my shower on september 5th,I love her like a sister! We had fun acting silly and changing poses before the camera took each pic!

20 week pics and updates on u/s results

20 week belly shot (actually 20 weeks 3 days)we took it a few days late




I know I have been a bad blogger, but life has gotten the better of my time lately.We have had yard sales at 2 different locations for the past 2 weekends to help try to make some money for needed baby items.So besides all the work those took lets see what else is new.Well I went back for the official results on July 30th and the OB said the head measurements etc looked good and on track.She also decided that since we could not see the hematoma on the gender scan u/s that she will have me do another u/s 4 weeks from then (now 16 days away) and if we don't see it on that u/s either than we will call it gone/resolved.We are so hoping that it is gone and not just hiding like they are known to do.As I stated before,even if it is gone we are not completely out of the woods for an early delivery as once the damage is done it's done with hematomas.And I do still have endometriosis which was my second risk factor for a preemie. However my chances of how early can be changed and lessened but the hematoma resolving.They also said that I only gained one pound in the 4 weeks proceeding my appontment.I have no idea how that could be possible I sure look like I am gaining a lot of weight.I think altogether (not including the wonderful 15-20 pounds I gained on fertility meds) I have gained about 5-6 pounds during my pregnancy.Did anyone else gain weight after months on fertility meds.I have heard it is common but that doesn't make me like it.Let's see what else is new, well my best friend informed that she will be throwing me a shower on September 5th, wow that is soon and I am so excited!I have no idea what I am going to wear for it,but I was tempted to wear a cute dress. We are still working on names and have started to narrow it down.I may ask for all of you girls input through a poll,just to see which name you all prefer.I know in the end it is our decision and we and our little boy will be the ones to live with it, but it will possibly help me sort the names out a bit.We did receive our first gift the other day it was from my DH's cousin (they live in Virginia).I guess they found our registry and decided to send us something, we hadn't even told anyone that we had made it yet.We were delighted when we opened the box from target and it had the bouncy seat we registered for inside.Our little miracle now makes himself known several times a day he goes through spurts of moving and kicking.I still get excited every time he does it.We can't wait to see him again on the 24th.I will also have a follow up with the OB on the 26th although I will be seeing one of the other OB's in the practice since mine will be on vacation.So now I guess I will leave you with some recent pics,including a 20 week belly shot which is 3 days late.Well girls that is about it for now.I will post more soon. HUGS!!

Me braving the camera after a long hot,rainy,humid day and with no makeup.Wow do I look pregnant!



The little monkey that daddy picked out for our little monkey!


Our first baby gift!! Jungle themed bouncy seat so cute!

Appointment today,registered for baby items and daddy felt the baby kick!

Tuesday night DH felt the baby kick for the very first time.I had been feeling the baby kick and placed his hand just to show him where,not thinking even for a minute that he would be able to feel it.Than all the sudden our miracle decided to give a good kick right in the same spot.I didn't have my hands on my belly but dh had his hand on my belly and we both were like did you feel that he just kicked.I couldn't believe he felt it too.I kept asking him if he was sure and he was grinning from ear to ear saying "that was so cool!".He was positive that he felt it.So we hit another mile stone.We also have been working on another which is registering for the stuff for the baby.We have registered at target and babies r us so far.(even though babies r us is about an hour away from us)Target had very slim pickings and everything seemed to be out or low.It was so surreal being the one to create the registry not just the one to buy someone else gifts off theirs.The difficult thing is that BRU advises against registering for clothing as it tends to have a high turnover and target's scanner won't let you.So we were unable to pick out clothing for him.And there is some very cute monkey outfits out,seems to be popular this year.I have a appointment to get the results of my anatomy scan/hematoma check today.I am a bit nervous but hoping it will be good news.I will update after I get home.My appointment is at 3:00pm.I also am including a late 18 week belly shot it was actually taken when I was 18 1/2 weeks but better late than never, I am currently 19 weeks 1 day.I just looked at them and wow do I look pregnant.Haven't weighed myself lately and not sure I want to but I know tomorrow at my appointment they will.Well girls you all take care and I will post again soon.

The big reveal!!!

Sorry it has taken a while for me to post about this but my morning/anytime sickness has returned and I have been very queasy and puking for the last 2 days.No fun.It joined my migraines and my bad chest cold I have and made me one miserable momma.The u/s went good and we got some pics of our darling baby.I will not get the actual results until my appointment on thursday july 30th this coming week.However the tech asked us if we wanted to know the gender and we were like "of course" and as she was looking and measuring everything she got a great bottom view with legs spread.And it's a BOY! He was moving all over the place he was so active and kicking and as usual he was stroking his precious little face.In all of the u/s's that we have had since about 10 weeks he is always rubbing or touching his face,it's adorable!He likes his thumb too.Now for the other news it looks as though the hematoma may be gone,I asked the tech if she could see it and she said she didn't at all.I am cautiously optimistic that it is gone as I do know other women from my hematoma online support group that were told they couldn't find theirs just to have them show up 2 weeks later on u/s.It has been 5 weeks since they looked at mine and the majority do resolve by 20 weeks if they are going to.So anything could have happened.I am hoping that the daily prayer for the baby's safety and the healing of the hematoma has worked.When the tech was doing the measurements etc she was like he is breech right now and then later she was like now he has turned around and now he has again.He is so active which makes me feel better that he is doing well,It was kinda cool because she could tell me what was where in me so I knew if it was a foot or an elbow that was kicking or hitting me.I thought I could tell when he turned because I had a lot of pressure and aches (which she told me I was right) and she was able to let me know where some of my discomfort came from and make it seem normal by explaining why and what I was feeling.So I now know a kick from an elbow bump.It was great to watch him and be able to relate it to my sensations.Girls I am so in love and this made it so much more real! No more saying it kicked or it moved, now I can say he kicked or he moved.Next phase is naming our miracle.So in closing I would like to say I had a feeling it was a boy and even voted boy on my poll.I did not share this with DH or anyone as I did not want to suade anyone one way or another.But for some reason I kept visualizing a boy and here he is.I love him just love him!!

Here's one of his tiny feet!


Here's a good profile shot.


Here is a 3D shot of our precious baby boy,it was love at first sight,he looks so peaceful all snuggled up in there.


Here is another 3D pic in this one he has his mouth in an "O" shaped like he is saying "oh" or is ready for a bottle.We got a few other's but they are not as good because he was moving so much.


They got a good shot between his legs.This is a view from the bottom looking up.They have an arrow on the umm part we were looking for LOL.

catching up, baby now kicks!

It just occured to me the other day that I have never shared with all of you that I felt the baby move for the very first time on June 27th.I was just laying very still talking to DH and it was a feeling that I had never felt before.I described it to my OB and she said that she was pretty positive that I had felt the baby move.Which that is what I thought when it happened,DH got so exited the day when it happened.I now know for sure that was our little monkey as it happens way more often now that I am almost 18 weeks.I was 14 weeks and 3 days the very first it happened.Which is earlier than most but not unusual.The best way to describe it lately is a feeling that someone is tapping you from the inside,kinda like if you were to take your finger and tap the inside of your cheek.It doesn't hurt just a fluttery feel that happens over and over in the same spot for the moment that it is happening.But changes to a different spot the next time.The baby kicked several times in church this morning it really caught me off guard :-).I can't believe we find out what we are having in 3 days!! On a another note my mom is paying for our family and my sisters to take the Badger which is a big boat and car ferry, over to wisconsin on wednesday.We are only doing the day trip where you ride the 4 hours there and spend about 2 hours in wisconsin (manitowoc) and then you ride the 4 hours back.She thought it would be a nice to treat all of us since everyone is struggling due to the michigan economy plus there is a deal right now where kids ride free so that is 4 free passengers.And I guess we qualified for a special rate since we are doing the day trip and not taking a car.Do any of my fellow bloggers live close to there? We would arriving there at 11:00 am your time.We are getting ice cream somewhere close to the boat and then leaving after our time is up.They have activities on the boat for the adults and kids.They also have a deli and cafeteria.So it will be one big day of cruising the big lake for us.DH gets seasick so this should be interesting.We went on a cruise for our honeymoon last year and those boats are huge and he still had a problem for the first few days until he got his sea legs.Now this boat will be much smaller and it is supposed to rain so there could be rough waters.I am gonna bring the dramamine and some bags for him, just in case. ;-) Well girls I should head to bed, you all take care and God bless you!

The wait is on

Waiting for this next u/s is agonizing.It is 12 days away and we are so excited to find out what we are having.It looks like the majority of you think girl.That is what we have heard a few times from our nurse since the baby's bpm runs so high.But I also know that it is not a positive indicator of gender as some boys have had high rates too.Probably like all old wives tales there is some truth in it but also a rate of incorrectness.I never did blog about our last u/s which was about three weeks ago now so here goes.I had my u/s at the birthing center simply by chance because the hospital was all booked up.Well let me tell you what a difference there was.The tech was so sweet and she showed me the screen while she was looking at the baby and said"aww look there's your baby!". She completely involved me and dh and even my boys.She showed me my hematoma and let me watch the baby for a while.She then gave both of my boys their own pic of the baby and us a whole strip of pics.It was wonderful and non stressful.She even told us the heart rate when I asked which was 173 bpm.I requested that my next u/s which is the gender one be performed at the birthing center and that is where they scheduled me YEAH!On another subject I have to say that I feel so much better now that I am off the extra meds (estrogen,PIO) I always thought how I was feeling was normal pregnancy symptoms but it wasn't.I feel like 75% better.What a difference all those extra hormones make.My hips are still sore and numb,my OB says it is most likely nerve damage and it will take time to heal.I do have to recommend getting a doppler it has been wonderful especially if you have had a scare.We ended up purchasing ours instead of renting since it would cost about the same to rent it the whole time.It actually was cheaper where I bought it from and it is the exact same one the other company rents out.Plus it's ours to keep and use for our next baby.If anyone ever wants info to the site just let me know as they had wonderful deals.We own ours for the price it costs to rent it from the other place for 5 months plus it came with a very sturdy case,2 tubes of u/s gel,free shipping and a free digital thermometer with each order over a certain amount.I do not know if they have any specials right now but they do them often. Well I guess that is it for tonight girls I will leave you with my 16 week belly shot and a picture of our monkey that was taken on 6-23-09 about 3 weeks ago (13 weeks pregnant).It will be 5 weeks total until we see him or her again, which is the longest we have ever gone.

Take my new poll, do you think I am having a boy or a girl

I just added a new poll just for fun.I am curious what everyone thinks I am having, a boy or a girl.Now remember genetics doesn't play into this at all.As this little miracle as well as my two precious boys are adopted, all from different families.The poll closes the day before our gender ultrasound.Tomorrow I will be posting new belly shots (16 weeks).

gender scan scheduled!

I had my follow up doctor appointment today at which I discussed with the doctor my concerns about waiting for results.She said that it was no problem and that I could get my results sooner just by calling and that maybe her nurse was having a bad day.So hopefully that is all resolved.Also I found out that my hematoma has grown,not exactly what I wanted hear but she said it was minimal growth like 1cm but still that is big enough for me.She said it may not even be that it is growing as much as stretching as the baby grows.It is hard to know what the stinkin hematoma is doing now since my u/s was almost 2 weeks ago and those results are basically old now.We have our next u/s in 3 weeks which will put us at 5 weeks since we saw our little miracle.But this will be the big u's where we get to find out what gender our little monkey is.We are so excited and know that the time will just drag by until then.We are partially anxious to find out as we need to plan, with DH laid off and being a stay at home mom.Things are tight, so I want to start trying to get cheap baby stuff and clothes.Also the reality is I probably won't make it to my due date so we need to be prepared 3 months ahead of time which is only 2 months away.The fact that I have endometriosis puts me at risk for delivering early as well as having the hematoma.I belong to a online group of women who have hematomas and the average pregnancy length for them seems to be anywhere from 27-34 weeks.With most falling in the 30-34 range.I am not sure how my endometriosis might play into the final due date exactly.Basically I have two risk markers for early delivery and we don't know which one or if any will affect me.My doctor today told me to have all my ducks in a row 3 months before my due date so that is what I plan to do.I am hoping we can secure what we need ahead of time so that DH won't be overburdened with me, a newborn and my 2 boys plus not having the supplies we need.I really don't think I have a feeling one way or another on if we are having a boy or girl.Sometimes I think girl others I see a baby boy.My best friend is convinced I am having a girl, just because that is what she thinks,no reason behind it all lol so we will see.Well that is about it today I will keep everyone posted and will be adding a ticker to countdown until our gender u/s in three weeks.We are having it on July 23rd at 11am.Hugs to you all and thanks again for all the support and kind comments.Also I want to mention that I received a very kind and thoughtful email from a women whom I did not know this morning, it touched my heart as she was kind enough to share her story with me and pray for me and my little one.I felt so blessed to have opened that email and read her kind,reassuring,and heartfelt words.If you are reading this Allyson I want to let you know that your letter touched me.I also what to thank Gretchen for sending a cute card in which she too wrote some very kind and inspiring words that served as a great smile maker for me :-).It is always nice to get something other than a bill in the mail,especially something as sweet as that.Again hugs to you all and God bless!

14 week belly shot a little late,PIO shots question and a update

HI everyone seems like it has been awhile since I posted.Partially I have been really busy playing catch up after being released from bed rest and also because my headaches have been often and intense.I had a u/s last week on Tuesday of which I have yet to get the results from.I did get the nurse to at least tell me the heart rate on the baby.And she said the doctor looked it over briefly and said everything looks ok and told the nurse that she would review the results when we came in a week and a half later.UGH! The nurse on the phone then informed me that I would no longer be getting results of my u/s's until I came in for my appointment.I was like what!!All I know is my appointments are always scheduled 1 1/2 to 2 weeks from my u/s since my OB is so busy.It just seems a bit unfair to me since by the time I get the results things could have changed (for example the size of the hematoma) and it will be old news when I receive it and time for a new u/s.Overall I am learning that the OB that may be great for yearly's and normal feminine needs may not always be the best to have when you are pregnant.She is way overbooked and way too busy.Always running behind,I think our longest wait was 2 whole hours.And now I will have no info on "my" pregnancy after the u/s until 1 and half to 2 weeks later.You would think they would like to give the stressed out pregnant mom some peace of mind and not stress her out more.So I guess I am curious for those of you that are pg how does your OB handle things like results,are you made to wait that long?? Still no luck on craigs list or any other avenue for maternity clothes.I just do get it I am in michigan of the fatest states in the nation what's with all the tiny maternity.Can't a girl get a large geez! I have considered what's happening is that that's just it that since there are more larger people that is why all the tiny clothes are left everywhere.I think the larges go fast.Which sucks for me.My body has continued to change I look different than I do in the pic I just posted.My weight has stabilized and I think I actually lost weight but my belly is still expanding.I haven't been very hungry lately.I did get my first belly rub at church from one of the elders a couple weeks ago.They were like "aww baby" rub rub rub.I am used to DH doing that but it may take a while to get used to other people just coming up and rubbing the belly.Also I know it early but I could have sworn I felt the baby move like rotate itself on saturday the 27th.It was a feeling I have never ever felt and felt like something rotated in my uterus but it was a very fluttery feel.I was laying very very still when it happened.Only time will tell as the baby moves more and it feels the same as what I felt then I will know that was what it was.I had another question for anyone that had to do PIO shots,how long did it take until you had no more pain from them.I have been off them for 2 1/2 weeks and my backside is till sore.More like it stings like someone has snapped me with a very large rubber band over and over and over again on both sides.I also have some lost feeling like it is partially numbed.Soft touches like when my hand grazes the area pulling my pants up or down feel like the area has been shot up with novacaine,like when you go to the dentist.But I am still very able to feel pain.It is very hard to explain but very scarey.I am glad that after I went off them I was better able to walk instead of waddle after about a week.I was on them for almost a month total.It was so bad at the end that my poor hip would jump or spasm when DH gave them to me.It hurt so bad it felt like my skin was blowing up like a balloon as he injected it.It stung soooo much.So I am interested in evryones else experiences with this.Well I think that is all for now girls I miss hearing from you all and hope I do soon((HUGS))