Adopting Miracles

Join us on our journey to build our family.I adopted my 2 beautiful boys from foster care after I struggled with infertility.I have stage 4 Endometriosis, POF and suffered miscarriages.My husband also suffers from infertilty.We now have our miracle son born 2009 after using donor embryos. Then our daughter in 2012. In 2014 we welcomed our twin girls! We still have 4 embryos remaining. Follow us as we start the donor embryo process once again late 2016 early 2017.This is our story..

Monday, November 15, 2010

Devastated and going private

Due to new circumstances in my world and it being recently being turned upside I might be making my blog private. Which will allow me to share with those of you I know the best what is happening in my world. I am struggling right now and wish I could share but just don't think I want to share with the whole world.These new happenings are the reason I haven't been around much also I have not been able to read some of your blogs for some time as I get a operation aborted message from my computer and it won't open a few of them.(Kami your blog is one of them)I have been having computer troubles and need to get it fixed but trust me that is the least of my worries...... Miss you all

30 comments:

harriett1047 said...: Keeping you in my prayers!; November 15, 2010 at 1:52 PM
Mandy said...: Yikes....hope everything sorts itself out. Stay strong.; November 15, 2010 at 2:09 PM
DF Farmstead said...: I know I haven't commented before, but I'd love to follow your journey still! If you have enough space left..
kelsey.demaris@gmail.com; November 15, 2010 at 2:15 PM
Just Believing said...: dear i am so sorry you know hopefully i have been a long time follower and feel so worried fo ryou!i am so sorry whatever you are going trhu an know prayers will be said!!!; November 15, 2010 at 2:20 PM
Marilyn said...: Love you Megan!!; November 15, 2010 at 3:52 PM
Ashley said...: Praying for you and will miss you!; November 15, 2010 at 4:07 PM
Ms. Pollywog said...: So sorry to hear that things are chaotic for you right now. I hope things look up really soon.
http://funnylittlepollywogs.com; November 15, 2010 at 5:14 PM
lyndsey said...: hugs, I hope it passes and everything gets in order soon. Take of yourself and if there is anything I can do, let me know.; November 15, 2010 at 7:01 PM
Anna said...: Oh no! Now I'm worring about you! I hope everything is okay and that it works out soon. Love ya, hang in there.; November 15, 2010 at 9:26 PM
Jen&Carter said...: I have been wondering about you. I hope and pray that all is okay, and whatever you are dealing with gets better.Keeping you in my prayers and thoughts. I would love to follow you when you go private if you allow me to. Hugs.; November 15, 2010 at 9:42 PM
Robbie said...: I am keeping you in my prayers! Hope things look up soon, and I would love to continue to follow. reilert79@gmail.com; November 16, 2010 at 12:59 AM
Krisa said...: I will be praying for you, Heather. Obviously, I don't know what's going on, but God does. Look to Him to turn devastation into something beautiful. He can do that. Don't lose hope, dear.; November 16, 2010 at 1:21 AM
Krisa said...: Megan- sorry, I think I typed the wrong name!!! I probably shouldn't blog at 1 AM!; November 16, 2010 at 1:22 AM
Angela said...: Hope you're ok!; November 16, 2010 at 2:49 AM
Polly Gamwich said...: don't know what's going on but I wanted to send hugs XOXO; November 16, 2010 at 3:27 AM
twondra said...: Love you so, so much and I've been thinking about you a lot. Know I'm always here. I think going private and feeling free to share whatever is on your heart and mind is the way to go. I think it would be therapeutic for you sweetie.

Love you....definitely praying for you.

And of course if you go private, I definitely want to follow :); November 16, 2010 at 8:45 AM
eestarn said...: Okay this is my first time commenting so forgive me if I do this wrong...no clue!! I have been reading your blog for some time now. And I too have a blog, I just am horrible at how to share it and all that good stuff that you ladies do. I hope and pray nothing but good for you and your family. I cant even remember how I sumbled upon your blog to be honest. I am sure it was during my days of desperately wanting a baby. And these blogs really gave me hope. So know that you sharing has been a wonderful inspiration to many even when maybe it didnt feel like it. And I certainly understand the need for privacy.
In any case, best of luck to you. And know that many people will be thinking of you.; November 16, 2010 at 9:43 AM
Karen said...: I have never commented before but have enjoyed following your journey. I will be saying prayers for you and your family and I am so sorry you are going thru this difficult time.
Karen (klb@unitedbenefitsinc.com); November 16, 2010 at 10:35 AM
Nichole said...: Megan - sorry you are having a tough time right now. We are all still here for you! Big Hugs!; November 16, 2010 at 11:21 AM
Amy, Ryan, Philip and Matilyn said...: Sorry to hear of your troubles! Waving hello from down the lakeshore!; November 16, 2010 at 12:19 PM
Christina said...: I've been thinking of you... I totally understand needing some private time. Hope to hear from you soon ;) You still have my email, right?; November 16, 2010 at 12:57 PM
Jen said...: Sending hugs and prayers!!! Please know I've been missing you and am here for you- I'd love to follow along when you go private and keep up with your beautiful boys!!!

Hugs!!!; November 16, 2010 at 12:58 PM
Michele said...: Oh honey... I am so sorry. Should you go private, please drop me a line. I'd love to keep up. Hugs...; November 16, 2010 at 1:06 PM
Hoping for our own Peanut said...: So sorry youre having a rough time. You know where to find me if you need to talk..; November 16, 2010 at 10:53 PM
Unknown said...: Please know we are praying and sending hugs. Still want to follow if you go private!

Jen; November 17, 2010 at 1:57 PM
ks said...: I'm so sorry you are going through some hard times right now. I hope whatever it is it passes quickley. Please know I am thinking of you.; November 17, 2010 at 5:43 PM
erinkayelovescows said...: Hi I've been following your blog for a while and haven't commented before. I'm sorry your going through a tough time and i hope things work out for you. Prayers to you and yours.
Erin; November 18, 2010 at 8:30 AM
happymomof4 said...: Oh, so so sorry to hear that things aren't going well. Thinking about you and keeping you in my prayers.
I would love to continue reading your blog if you have space etc... THANK YOU and PRAYING for you!
madhenmom@gmail.com; November 18, 2010 at 12:13 PM
Meredith said...: My thoughts and prayers are with you!!! *Hugs*; November 18, 2010 at 3:45 PM
amanda said...: oh no!! i'd love to keep up with you if you do go private. praying for whatever is going on with you!! i'm so sorry you have to be dealing with something not fun!; November 24, 2010 at 4:59 PM

Feel free to contact me with questions about using donor embryos :-)

I would like to make myself available to anyone who is interested in learning more about embryo adoption/using donated embryos.If you would like an honest opinion and or support from someone who has gone through the process and what my experience was like feel free to contact me through comment or email.I will be glad to be there for you whether you are just looking into the option or already started the process, I am here for you.I would be glad to share as much information as I can that can help you in your decision.

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My TTC, adoption timeline, started 11 years ago

September 7, 2011 First U/S. We saw the heartbeat! EDD is May 3rd.
August 25, 2011 Second Beta 531!
August 23, 2011 First Beta 206! We're Pregnant!
August 12,2011 FET Our last embryo makes the thaw and is transferred
July 16, Start meds for new cycle
May 27, Negative Beta :-(
May 16, Transfer day, both embryos make the thaw
May 5, Start new medication protocol
April 30, Cycle cancelled due to lack of response
April 17, First shot
March 29,2011 Mock transfer and sono
March 27,2011 Start BCP's for new FET cycle
February 21,2011 Consult appointment for new FET cycle
December 15, I give birth to a beautiful baby boy
April 17, Second Positive Beta 375
April 15, First Positive Beta 135
April 13, Positive Home pregnancy Test (BFP)
April 4, 2009 - Frozen Embryo Transfer (FET)
March 23, 2009 - Lupron added to Follistim protocol
February 24,2009 - Transfer canceled due to the cyst rupturing making my body think it is time for a period, Birth control pills are started to regulate cycle and we are planning to use my next cycle
February 24,2009 - scheduled ultrasound and bloodwork, still spotting
February 23,2009 - I have left ovary sharp very uncomfortable pain, I reassure myself its only the cyst possibly draining, few hours later I start spotting
February 20,2009 - Go in for Bloodwork and Ultrasound, they see same cyst on one ovary and small follies in other, meds are upped
February 16, 2009 - Start follistim
Transfer tenatively planned for february 28th
February 13,2009 - Baseline Ultrasound, they see a cyst but are unconcerned just wanna watch it
January 25,2009 - Bloodwork and lots of it ,DH and I get all our bloodwork done and paperwork notorized
January 2,2009 - Mock transfer and Offically accept embryo set
December 29,2008 - Get a call about embryos that are available
November 18, - meeting with donor co-oridinator
November 5,2008 - we officially put our selves on the donated embryos waiting list
October 20, 2008 - Ultrasound and then while we are there they give us DH SA results and basically say there is no way we will concieve on our own as DH count is normal but his morphology and motility are way below normal,cycle shutdown never use ovidrel
October 15, 2008 - Dh has SA
October 2008 - Start clomid (it all comes back to me how evil that drug is,I feel miserable)
September 8,2008 - Appointment with RE clomid is prescribed (it was not my usual RE he was out)
May 24, 2008 - We get married!!
November 2007 - We began TTC naturally only using a fertilty monitor
October 21,2007 - He proposes, I say yes!
October 20, 2007 - We move into our current home together(yeah I know ,I know I didn't think I was gonna ever date him but he was relentless lol)
October 2007- 4th Laproscopy and Hysteroscopy
January 2007 Meet my current husband through a friend but we do not date yet I actually never thought I would ever date him, his age scared me off a bit since he is younger than me
The years of TTC and fostering amongst other things have taken their toll and we separate and after the waiting period divorce amicably, I retain custody of my boys but he is an active loving father and still one of my close friends
Over the years I would end up fostering 17 placements with only 2 ever becoming adoptable and not without many ups and downs and heartbreak,reunification is the first goal.I just wanted to give others an approximate idea of the ratio of placements to adoptions so they can see things clearly before they make a decision if fostering is right for them
May 31,2006 - My second sons adoption is completed and official
More placements come and go
November, 2005 3rd Laproscopy and Hysteroscopy
May 19, 2005 - another placement of an infant boy ,he was 10 days old (he too would become my son)
May 19,2005 - My first sons adoption is finally official!
More placements came and went through the years, painful but I was always realistic with the ones that had a reunification plan, reunification with the bio parents was always the goal
May 2005 - baby M. left.We had cared for baby M. for a few months growing very attached and then out of nowhere came a cousin that all of the sudden wanted him and before I could barely blink my baby was gone, I never got over it and still miss him dearly.(I miss you baby M.I have never forgotten you.I wonder what you look like now,you would be five now.....)
Right from the start we were told that he was almost positively adoptable we continued loving him and bonding with him as if he was our forever child.And after about a month he was allowed to come home they were in the process of terminating the parents rights,it was a for sure termination and there were no other relatives wanting him or even trying to visit him when he was in the NICU
February 27,2004 - Accepted third placement of infant preemie boy he wasn't even out of hospital yet and was airlifted about an hour and a half away, we went to see him there and did cares such as tube feedings and kangeroo care and then after a week or so he was brought to a local hospital NICU where we continued doing cares for him,We were told that there was no reunification plan in place he was going up for adoption and that we should plan to become his parents, we were estatic
March 24,2003 - Get second placement of a 7 day old infant boy (he would become my son but it would take 2 1/2 years to become final as there would be heartbreaking ups and downs in the case) it would change almost monthly whether he was staying or going to a bio family
September 2002 - get first placement a boy who is 3 1/2 and would end of staying 17 months and then was returned to bio parent in January 2004
August 2002 - become foster parents
Continue to TTC using a fertility monitor
December 2001 - run out of money can not continue we have no infertility coverage at all not even meds,we are officially spending more than we earn on infertilty
November 2001 - 2nd cycle on injectibles this time with IUI BFN
October 2001 - Injectibles started,repronex follistim and ovidrel ,not good response meds upped BFN
I do one more cycle on clomid and the I get very severe abdominal pains,end up in ER, where they discover I have had a large cyst caused by the clomid rupture and there are more cysts, cycle and clomid stopped
I do 2 cycles, no luck BFN's for both
Late summer 2001 start clomid
Summer of 2001 2nd laproscopy and hysteroscopy performed
TTC for over a year, no luck
May 1999 - given hormone pills to make AF come back, it works
April 1999 - AF still is a no show
March 1999 - AF doesn't return even though shots are done
August 1999 - Lupron shots are started for the duration of 6 months,to put me into menapause it is supposed to decrease the endo
July 9,1999 - Laproscopy and Hysteroscopy performed and stage 3-4 endometriosis found
June 4,1999 - D&C performed
May 27,1999 - Miscarriage
April 1999 - Pregnant
December 1998 - TTC again this time with temping,charting and ovulation predictors
October 13,1998 - D&C performed
October 10,1998 - Miscarriage
October 1,1998 - pregnancy confirmed at doctors appointment it is decided that I am 5 weeks gestation
September 28,1998 - Pregnant
Started using ovulation predictors a few months later
March 1998 - started to TTC with what is now my Ex husband

Monday, November 15, 2010

Devastated and going private

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